I’m like at my prime right now! like im really happy with myself. Yes! I still have a lot to work on but by far im feeling great! My skin is glowing, my tummy is flat, no male problems, a running car, a home, hair you name it!!!
But even with me being in my prime, I haven’t always been this confident..
Insecurity is real.
To some, They’d think “Oh she has such a beautiful face”, “Two kids girl your body is so bomb!!”
I wasn’t feeling it tho, my body has been one of my biggest insecurities!
I can’t stand my stomach, no im not being dramatic, I legit have an oatmeal crème pie belly poppin. It’s not sexy and I can’t wear a two piece. I could if I wanted to but I don’t.. Yes I could workout, but let’s be real some of us are lazy!! It’s not an excuse but that’s the truth for me.
Even though I get loads of compliments, I haven’t always felt pretty, I know im not ugly but I haven’t always felt like I’ve looked the best. Some days I found myself becoming jealous of other girls because I felt like I wasn’t pretty like them, I even tried to put myself out there because of attention. The feeling of being noticed which attracts the wrong attention sometimes.. For a moment I began to wear a lot of makeup.. no one noticed it but I wanted to wear makeup everyday. I couldn’t even do makeup but I wanted to wear it everyday because I felt like all the other girls had it on and they are getting the attention I want.
I think us as women all go through a moment where we are seeking and crying out for attention.
I’ve also been very insecure about my boobs.. Yes my boobs! lol Imagine me, in highschool all of the girls are wearing cute bras and I still have to wear the ugly little undershirts with the little pink bow at the top. P.E was like the worst, I hated having to change into my P.E clothes. I even got caught stuffing my bra! haha, I would put folded socks in my bra just because I didn’t want my bra to look bumpy. HA! I remember reading this book “Are you there God? Its Me, Margret” in the book there was a part where she was trying to make her boobs grow lol and she began to chant with her friends saying “We must, we must, we must increase our bust.” lol so I was in the car with my mom and I started pushing my chest back and forth and moving my arms in and out. Like I was doing push ups and I started chanting “I must, I must, Increase my bust.” In my head of course. So my mom looked over at me and said “Hey! you better stop” “I read that book”. Talk about being embarrassed, I was about to get straight slapped! lol. Being with a guy wasn’t any better either. I literally would keep shirt on because I was so ashamed of my body.
“Chass, you are leading the pack. Who are you? The leader of the itty bitty tittie committee?” extremely funny now but back then uh no!
My swim suit tops, don’t fit well.. even after having two kids I still didn’t have a full chest. Something so small to you all is something so big to me! I even wanted to get a boob job. I think almost every girl has wanted a boob job.
I’ve faced insecurities in my work place, I felt as if I wasn’t good enough at what I do. I doubted myself “SELF DOUBT.” I felt, like I’m meeting every stat but I’m still off, I decided to send my boss an email. Stating that I’d like to talk with him. I explained how I didn’t feel confident in asking to help out or assist with things within the company because I was afraid of rejection, BUT why be afraid of getting turned down when you are doing such a wonderful job. I was insecure in my work but my work was outstanding!
Insercuties can block so many opportunities and advancements and you won’t even realize it.
How could someone so beautiful not love themselves?
It’s possible, very possible. How you look at yourself and how you treat yourself is everything.
Self Love.. Self love.. Self love.
My insecurities were very noticeable, maybe not to others but to myself. I noticed everything, everything I started doing began to seem like a cry out for attention.
I was an ATTENTION seeker!
How can you be insecure but still want attention?
And that’s just it! you’re insecure ( no im not calling everyone insecure) so when you are unhappy with yourself you look to others to make you whole, you look for something to feed your ego when you don’t even need to do that, you have to be comfortable with yourself and who you are! That’s what makes you unapologetically you! every insecurity, every flaw, everything you dont like about yourself you began to embrace!
- Remember that you are not perfect, and no one should ever make you feel that you have to be!
- Build your confidence.
- Be SECURE in who you are
“The things that I hated the most about myself others loved..
Who I am is who ill ever be! I am who I am and im happy with it. I’m comfortable in my skin, I know that im beautiful and worth it. So as I said im living in my prime. Im overly confiendent right now and I loveeee it!